While I don't have time for much detail, I will give a brief update as to my Fieldwork.
I'm 2 weeks in, and here's what I've learned:
1. I am stuck in an impossible situation with a mentor whose teaching technique is archaic, whose commentary is sarcastic to students, who seems impatient and bored with teaching and thus also with me.
2. I am STUCK with her. The Center of Pedagogy will do absolutely nothing for me until Student Teaching next semester.
3. I will try my damndest to see the best in her, and keep in mind that she in an expert in English content knowledge while I come from a child-centered teaching philosophy. Perhaps we can balance each other out.
4. She should be both subject mastery AND child-centered teaching.... oops, I forgot, I was supposed to stay positive.
5. Being a "marketable" English major and choosing teaching as the asset basically translates to "my mentor is in teaching for the money and because she failed as a published writer."
6. I am learning what not to do as a teacher, and what NEVER to do in my own classroom. This is my mantra: my mentor is what NOT to do.
7. My mentor's "teaching" is not what teaching is, by any definition, and I know it. Lecturing from behind a podium all day and then watching her students fail is NOT teaching. Yet my mentor thinks these two events are unrelated.
8. Hypocrisy, condescension and intimidation DO NOT encourage... anyone, students or otherwise.
9. When my mentor tells the students "Don't worry about her, she's here to observe" in regarding my presence in the classroom, the students are SHOCKED to find I can actually speak for myself during class, and I have intelligent thought. Hopefully they'll see I can help them, even if my mentor won't let me get near them.
10. Reflective practice is essential to good teaching. Something my mentor has yet to learn.... if she ever will.
Yep, that's the Reader's Digest version of what's going on. Any advice, gentle readers, on how to stay positive through this nightmare of the rest of my Fieldwork semester?
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
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